thank you for your baby boy....

I was watching "Jesus of Nazareth" the other night. I've seen it many times before...it was being played in the Pavilion of Promise at the Worlds Fair in Vancouver, B.C. in 1984. As I'm watching the scene in the Garden where Jesus is praying......it struck me how much I struggle with the humanity of Jesus. As I'm watching the scene unfold I'm thinking," He fore-knew why He was sent, of course He would die, that's the whole reason He came!!"
So, why the prayer????He knew the answer, He knew.....so, why pray??????
Did Jesus really have all of the struggles that come with humanity? The Bible says that Jesus sits on the right hand of God making intercession for us......us, humanity.
I am struck by how little I comprehend what Jesus did for us, for me...it is easy for me to be flip about it and say, "yeah, I believe He died for my sins....." How can I be so flip about that statement????
I watched the movie "Saving Private Ryan" and walked away from that awestruck by those men's sacrifice to save one man......I mean it affected me....I was tortured by this movie!
So, why doesn't the sacrifice of the Son of God move me like that???? I believe it is this lack of understanding Jesus' humanity....Jesus came, not as God's robot, but as His Son......for me...because He couldn't live a day without me......because He loves me.....and you....
My new favorite Christmas song is,"Mary, did you know that your baby boy would one day ...."
I think I'll start from there......I'm a mom, after all, and Jesus had a mother.......
Thank you, Father, for not giving up on this feeble servant. Fill me with your sweetness....and thank you for your baby boy......